Cause you bring out the best in me,Like no one else can do.Today took a whole load of troubles off my mind. Weekends seem more like an escape from reality these days, where I get to spend time with people whom I cherish very much in my heart. I may have made some of the worst choices in life, but I've made some of the best friends there could ever be. And then, there's
you. (:
I made the right decision in attending the recent few prayer meetings. I've been feeling dry the past few months and prayers to the heavens above are the only thing that's been keeping me going this entire week. I know they've been going unanswered all this while, but something in me tells me to stay strong, have faith, and push on. It wasn't for me to choose though. There's nothing much I could do, as my body and mind chose to endure through the week, battered and bruised, physically and emotionally.
Yet, the last day of March 07' ended on a high note. Despite the many negatives over the month, the only condolences I was offered were through the friendships forged over years. After attending the prayer meeting today, I found myself in the movies watching the life of a man so complicated unfold. What really got me thinking wasn't so much of the number 23, it was more of a how ignorance is bliss sort of thing. And even if the story twisted and turned throughout, it ended with the simplest, yet most beautiful ending. Love does change a person's heart, and it certainly changed yours and mine.
After which, I played pool with Jethro, Junle and Leonard. It's a wonder how a short pool session is able to flood our lives with smiles and laughter. Maybe it's a guy's thing. And I do admit I was a little high, cause for some reason, I am a very happy boy today. (: I took off at half past eleven to take the long walk/ride home with my primary school friends. And while photos capture memories, memories capture the feathers of bliss that quiver in the air.
But all good things come to an end. It's 3.14 a.m now. Before I dive into my bed and pull the covers, I wish the world a silent and peaceful night.
And yes, your smile that made my day remains etched on my mind.
I wonder why.
That's why I'm by your side.That's why I love you.Replies to tags:
Sandy: Hellooo. (: Stop being obsessed with the number 23!Jeremy: Hey, man. This place isn't emo, it's filled with love and joy. (: Haha, anyway, good luck with polytechnic life and see you soon.Charmaine: I'll go read all your posts! (: I do wish you come back to church soon, cause everyone misses you. ):Anna (MI): And good luck to you as well. (:Monster: (:Atiqah: Atiqah Atiqah Atiqah, I miss you toooo. ): And everyone else!Irvin: Haha, yeah yeah. And plenty of your ' C' s too, eh? Hahaha.My (very own, gasp!) reader: Hey there, thanks for visiting/reading/tagging, and for your compliments as well. I could link my archives to you if I could, but I have absolutely no idea how. Besides, I have doubts that my archives are capable of sustaining any interest. (:Huiyi: Hello Huiyi! Haha, I miss you and the rest alot. ): Stay cheery yourself too! (:Nisa: It's better to be late than never! Haha, the outing.. shall commemorate one day! I really don't know, you need to ask the rest! I'm free to catch up with you anytime though. (: I hope you've been fine!
Tell me why.
I hate how you always never seem to answer.
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The last time I looked, the sky was a beautiful shade of orange and red. I was playing the guitar until darkness fell and everything felt refreshing for a change after a very tiring week. I'm sorry that this place contains just bits and pieces of my life now, but that's exactly how things are right now. I'm picking up the pieces slowly, bear with it and I'll sort out everything soon. At least, I hope so. For now, let's drown in our sorrows and raise our mugs to the drunken night sky.
My body feels cold. My forehead is burning hot. My nose is killing me. I feel terrible. I think I'm falling so sick I'm gonna die anytime soon.
Tonight, I'm going to stay up to do Economics. And Chemistry. And Mathemactics and Geography. I'm going to work myself so hard that I die in the process. And if all else fails, I shall fall asleep at dawn and not wake up in time for school.
I wish I could talk to the principal of NYJC.
I wish I could
study in NYJC.
Lifehouse - Take Me Away.One part of me bemoans the many wrong decisions I made in life. Yet another part pushes me on. Someone once said this to me. What doesn't breaks you makes you. But some days in life, you find yourself lying on a field. Look up upon the sky, the stars, and the moon. Your heart, your eyes gaze in awe at God's wondrous creations. And you whisper a silent prayer.
You cry out to be broken.I wish I could be happy like them. I wish all this was a bad dream. I want to wake up, badly. But the truth is ugly. And realitiy is cruel. My final last attempt probably ended up undisclosed, buried under a pile of thrash where it lies cold and lonely.
Emptiness fills up you heart. It threatens to overflow.
Yet, it is but only empty.
Sometimes, you ask: "God, what's your problem?"
But each time, the reply was silent; non-existent.
You look on, as the days ahead form the invisible bars that build your prison.
And Live Our Lives, Stigmatized.This just hit me from nowhere. I badly want out of this little island. I'm 17 this year. I have my dreams. And being here, they're hard to acheive. They're impossible to reach. I need a little more breathing space. I need somewhere to let myself out. I have the world under my feet.
I need to live.
I need to express.
It's not about school, not about people.
It's not about anything.
I just want
out of this place.
I went to visit an old friend near the Esplanade today.
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"It's been a while. How have you been, old pal?"
"What a surprise! Pretty much the same, little guy. What brings you here?""I'm visiting you cause I missed your company."
"Hah. You never change, do you? I reckon life's giving you a hard time again.""You bet it is."
"How's school?""Roll the years back 4 years from now, and you've got your answer."
"Some things just don't change, eh?""Yeah. But it's a wonder how many things can change within a short time too."
"Uh huh."-silence-
"You know, people come to this place with cans of beer. You're the first who comes with.. bars of chocolate.""What do you know anyway. Chocolate is the new cool, can."
"Can? Uh. Can, can. So who's it from? Penguin?""No. Penguin swam away a long time ago."
"Then?""Monster gave them to me."
"Tsk. First, there were penguins. Now, there are monsters. You live a life of fantasy, don't you?"Yes, and what have we got here. A talking merlion."
"Merlions are better than penguins or monsters, can!""Can, can. You win."
-silence-
"Otherwise, why would I be here with you to watch the world pass us by?"
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It's good to visit old friends once in a while.
And when it's time to go, I left him with the stars for company.
What happens if one day you find yourself stuck in life, a sense of dread swirls in your stomach, and your throat feels a little too dry for comfort? When centuries moves forward and you stay behind and watch the walls close in on you? Spell u-n-f-a-i-r, and it reads connections and dollar bills and you dream of which mountain peaks you would be on. And why is it so that as four years slipped by, you take in the sweet scent of a new beginning before the familiar odour of regret and dread rush in to invade your life? You say, six years of perfect unison with the now familiar sound of dragging school shoes, and I say, why not, now that you've flung my life thus far. Oh, sweet joy, I rejoice in failures and swim in seas of despair.
But hey, it's been a while since you visited me, eh? Welcome back, let's get on with your twisted game of life.
Stars looking at our planet, watching entropy and pain.And maybe start to wonder, How the chaos in our lives could pass as sane.As fast as they had come, they left lightning quick, and you wonder if the footprints left in the mud belonged to you in the first place. Just a click, and the next day, unknown territory makes your heart pump a little faster, 07A2 suddenly feels so beautiful a dream. Oh wait, a dream?
I never had a chance to say goodbye, much less shed a single tear. And so, 07A2 bid their farewells, alighting from the train fate had brought them all together in a single eventful journey that grafted unspeakable joys into this run-down carriage. For many of them, the closing chapters of secondary studies opened the doorway to a whole new beginning, but now, chapters are closing again, and even fairytale endings sometimes invoke tears in the coldest hearts. Much as the final page tempts us to tear it out for time to rewind itself, pages do run out in the end.
Dip fountain pens in ink, flip tattered pages, and a whole new story unfolds itself into the future.
Tracing the constellations of stars, a full moon looks down upon you behind the fog. You say look into your eyes and speak to you my heart. But my heart says look into my eyes, and you'd see the endless rain that pours inside. The stars do twinkle in the night, but the fog hides a thousand secrets; it cuts a lonesome figure.
But a walk down the park left me with countless thoughts.
Overdue replies to tags:Syahira: I'll miss MI and I'll miss you too. ):Charmaine: I haven't seen/talked to you in ages, I wonder how you're doing. (:Ethel: Hello! I'm a bright boy!Anna: I know. Thank you. (:Anna (MI): Thank you for the marshmallows(?). We'll meet up still, okay? Haha, you're one of my first friends in MI!Nisa: Hey YOU. Can't believe you withdrew from school! Haha, we're going out next week to celebrate your birthday, yes? (: And I'm going call you and take up all of your time soon, hahaha. :DAhCHING!: Haha HELLO. (: I'll miss calling ahching!ahching!ahching! in school! ):Monster: Hello you, hahahahaha.(: : Hahah. And what do we have here, this has 'lek' written all over it. Talk soon, playmate/shopping mate. (:
Endless
Rain.
Thank you, two-years-old-silly-monster-and-pretty-egyptian!
For making my day,
& your silly-ness that made me laugh so hard. (:
040307. <3
The strands in your eyes that colour them wonderful,Stop me and steal my breath.270207 was really oh-so beautiful. The colours in your heels painted the day pretty, it painted my day. Your smiles and laughter captured the faintest of light; the glow behind the clouds in the morning. Years down the road, and it'd be good if we're still good friends, but if sadly we aren't, I'll still look upon this day and smile myself silly.
Y'know, you have the most mesmerising of eyes. (:
As the sun sets on the two months we spent together, I see something in the far horizon that I'd cherish very much. The memories that 07A2 brought me. The days when we laugh time away, and all the silly things we did together. I'll miss you, you and you. ): Hell, I'll miss everyone.
& without a doubt,
Your eyes, your smiles.
